"I'll Love You Forever..."

Dearest Gavin,

I write this blog for you. So that you may know me if something were to happen to me and God forbid I pass away before you can truely remember me. I write this so you can at least read this blog and know my thoughts about you in my words. In my writing (well...okay typing). As you probably already know I was born with severe heart defect and I have had a lot of health issues that i fear will probably cut my life shorter than I would like. I have been in and out of the hospital several times for several things..It was durring one of the times i was in the hospital (for congestive heart failure) that your grandma (my mom) said this to me; "You know I lost my dad unexpectedly when i was very young,  and he never wrote us anything to remember him by, I think it would be best to either write journals, or type things for Gavin to remember you if you were to ever pass away suddenly". I told her that I had been thinking about doing that and that I would start something for you...

SO, for my very first post I chose to tell you....

"I'll love you forever and I'll never let you go!" 

There may be things you don't understand about me or why I do things the way I do... However there is one thing I hope you will always know... I'll love you forever, and i'll never let you go!

I know I say this in over abudance and it may just sound like the same words you heard every night as I put you down to sleep but it has so much meaning to me... I say it because it was said to me when I was little and i think it is imporant that you know your parents love you and want you.  I say it every night because I want you to know no matter  who you turn out to be you will be loved and supported. I say it because even on the hardest days you will be loved... always, in all ways!

It's as simple and as complicated as that!