We've come a long long way kid....

See the biggest cell in the middle there....yeeah i have reason to believe that was you.. as your cells split and created you... this is the closest to conseption we have and you know what? who else can say they have a picture of the zygote that used to be them?

Why do we have this picture??? well that is a story in and of it's self... a story that actually is blogged about in a blog about you.... http://www.salsersbabystory.blogspot.com/ 

At the point in time that I am writing this you are 2 months away from turning 3 years old....

YOU ARE HUGE...no seriously you are up to my belly button and weigh close to 45 lbs... 

a long ways from the picture above..

Here are a few things I don't want to forget about age 2...

I love watching you grow and learn...

I love your snotty little kisses

and your choice of words like "leave-es".

I love that you call me mommy but sometimes you call me "Rebekah" because daddy does

I love that you're almost potty trained, but more so that you refuse to go to the potty sitting foward!

Your imagination is gRoWiNg daily.

You love to show me that you killed the monsters or bad guys for me....

or with me!!

Alright I will write more but for now i got to go to bed!!

"Good night my love...I love you so!!"

"I'll Love You Forever..."

Dearest Gavin,

I write this blog for you. So that you may know me if something were to happen to me and God forbid I pass away before you can truely remember me. I write this so you can at least read this blog and know my thoughts about you in my words. In my writing (well...okay typing). As you probably already know I was born with severe heart defect and I have had a lot of health issues that i fear will probably cut my life shorter than I would like. I have been in and out of the hospital several times for several things..It was durring one of the times i was in the hospital (for congestive heart failure) that your grandma (my mom) said this to me; "You know I lost my dad unexpectedly when i was very young,  and he never wrote us anything to remember him by, I think it would be best to either write journals, or type things for Gavin to remember you if you were to ever pass away suddenly". I told her that I had been thinking about doing that and that I would start something for you...

SO, for my very first post I chose to tell you....

"I'll love you forever and I'll never let you go!" 

There may be things you don't understand about me or why I do things the way I do... However there is one thing I hope you will always know... I'll love you forever, and i'll never let you go!

I know I say this in over abudance and it may just sound like the same words you heard every night as I put you down to sleep but it has so much meaning to me... I say it because it was said to me when I was little and i think it is imporant that you know your parents love you and want you.  I say it every night because I want you to know no matter  who you turn out to be you will be loved and supported. I say it because even on the hardest days you will be loved... always, in all ways!

It's as simple and as complicated as that!