The doctors put me on another medicine this week, one that helps my heart function, this fact bugs me...I am not sure why it bugs me so much...Maybe it's another thing to remember...maybe it's another sign that I am not as healthy as I like to think I am. I hate that I have to worry about these meds... and if I were the only one in my life I had to worry about I may not be as good as I am about taking them.
But you know what?? I have you and your dad to live for... I take the medicines 2x a day ( all 7 of them total) because I know they sustain my life... When I remember at night while I lay in bed that I forgot to take the last 2 pills it is the thought of you and your lovely energy that makes me get up and take them...SO I can have breath the next day... So I can run with you, because that is what I live for! Well... there is one more thing... I want to see Natie's twins grow up and you have two cousins you can play with... That's right Natie is pregnant (one would be glorious enough right?!) with twins (OH MY GOSH MAGNIFICENT!!!!!)
But you know what?? I have you and your dad to live for... I take the medicines 2x a day ( all 7 of them total) because I know they sustain my life... When I remember at night while I lay in bed that I forgot to take the last 2 pills it is the thought of you and your lovely energy that makes me get up and take them...SO I can have breath the next day... So I can run with you, because that is what I live for! Well... there is one more thing... I want to see Natie's twins grow up and you have two cousins you can play with... That's right Natie is pregnant (one would be glorious enough right?!) with twins (OH MY GOSH MAGNIFICENT!!!!!)
Isn't that exciting???? I know you have no idea what this means right now but I promise this is exciting! My cousins were the best things in life at times growing up... they were like my big protective brother <Andrew> my closest confidant <Emily> and the ones that would know just how weird that "weird uncle" really could be <Rachel and Ben> to name a few awesome things that cousins can be. They can be better than siblings because you don't have to live with them <and in turn fight or get on each other's nerves> and better than friends because you can commiserate together about just how crazy this thing called family can be. YUP! My hope for you is that these two little beans become some of your closest friends and relatives!!
Okay, so just one more thing to talk about....Something that makes me giggle every Saturday... Apparently it is now almost ritualistic that you spend the night at Grandma and Grandpa's house Friday night and Saturday Day we go to a "Festable" yes that's right a "festable" what normal people would call a Festival... it doesn't really matter what it is just as long as it is outside and has a bounce house.....if they have hairspray that will color your amazingly blonde hair you are even more for it!! :-) CHECK THIS OUT....
Orange <currently your favorite color> and blue pokadotted hair!! We must have gone to 8 festivals this summer and fall...mostly in the fall! I think Grandma had just as much fun as you do at these events... but lets just say... Mommy is growing weary of standing near the entrance of a bounce house as you go in....bounce for 5 min and come out because the people tell you that you must take turns.....and 1 turn later you are back in it.... you do this over and over for as long as we let you...usually about 25 to 30 times.... It's fun to see you enjoy yourself...even if I should be doing some cleaning at home <that can always be done a different day!!>.
Alright I think that's all I have for this round of random ramblings!!!!!
I love you Gavin, I'll love you forever and I'll never let you go!
~Mom, Mum, Mommy, Momma or whatever you want to call me! :-*
